There is a general lack of any sense of thrill in the victory. Almost none. There was a brief moment of relief right after but it dissipated to nothing more than mere acknowledgement that we've completed a task we set ourselves out to do. But it was a long week and it had ended - on a good note. At any rate, it was a victory whether or not I am thrilled by it.

The whole whirlwind starts again tomorrow.

I am tempted to say it is altogether a waste of time. Because, I've been through all this before and going through it again makes all of it feel so empty.

And at the end of it all, you look at it as a whole and you think you're not even half of what you want yourself to be.

[[ music ]] Will Smith - Just The Two of Us
[[ mood ]] fucked

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"This will not be quick. You will not enjoy this. I am not your Queen."
- Queen Gorgo, 300




If 300 should come anywhere close to being entertaining, it would be when Gorgo stabbed Theron in the counsel meeting. Otherwise, the movie is no different from any other movie - promoting the use of violence and force.

But, I am a harsh, unforgiving critic, and a feminist. I dont suppose I do very well with reviews.

Don't take my word for it.

[[ music ]] Nina Simone - Feeling Good
[[ mood ]] working

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"You are blessed. And you don't know it."
- Aarthi J. on people who don't go for lunch breaks



I haven't a thought about it but I think life has offered me more than I could ask of it. But, I am not about to indulge myself in an unusual update of how blessed I am. I am not that sort of writer. I am - actually. But, I'm not about to do it here this time.

Life ... you live and you leave and that's about all there is to it.

[[ music ]] Nelly Furtado - Say It Right
[[ mood ]] hopeful

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"Uneasy lies the head that wears the crown."
- William Shakespeare, King Henry IV, Act IV Scene IV


I should like to think all this exhaution should have an end - soon. It has come to my realisation that any further existence in such a state of mind cannot be good for me. Promises ... they put you in such awful positions.

The past weeks have been horrid. And, any reminder of it cannot improve the situation. I do not suppose anyone outside the tight circle would comprehend how it feels to be confined in such a manner. But, whining about it doesn't help. I've tried.

And, in spoken words, I have blamed those who have faith for convincing me to do the same. Truth is, I must admit, I find it unfortunate that I share not the same amount of faith and that I was so weak as to be convinced that I did. But, it matters not on whom or where the fault lies.

One bottle of Russian Vodka.
Two Indian machas.
Three half drunks.
Four and a half law scholars.
Five hours of life stories.
Six friends at the table.

That is about all it takes to remind you that tomorrow will be a better day. Alcohol is a mesmerising creation - and so are friends.

Cheers.

[[ music ]] John Rouse - Sad Eyes
[[ mood ]] grateful

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